EALRY MONDAY MORNING

I just spent the last 40 mintue diriving to work in traffic. There are upsides and downsides to moving to our new place. One of the upsides is that my driving needs are actually somewhat satisfied. The down side is umm .. traffic. Today was my first experience dealing with morning traffic.

But all that does not matter at the moment as I am nursing bitter disappointment. I will not be able to go the final of the super fourteen.

At R300 a ticket; it’s a lot tooo much and something that unfortunately cannot be done. At the moment there is an air of disappointment and upsetness settled over my beloved and I. Going to a game and all that it involves is something that we both enjoy and love doing. We don’t mind leaving really early and sitting in the traffic and then at the stables and walking all that way to sit in the sun and watch the game and now we can’t go.

On the one hand I think that I should not go. Afterall I am a really new fan and there are those out there who have been die hard supportes way longer than I have. Now don’t get me wrong I have always been a shark supporter. After all I was born in Natal and the Sharks are the Kwa-Zulu Natal team. So come rain or shine I will always support the sharks. And yes they have their bad day and have their good days but support is support and you do it no matter what. So while I may not have known anything about rugby, I was always a sharks supporter.

And then there was the Sharks vs Crusaders match where Odwa Ndungane scored a try in the 79 minute of the game. I was hooked. Now I will be the first to admit that I don’t know everything there is to know about rugby but I am making an effrort at learning and I think it somewhat surprises my beloved when I make accurate judgement calls and actually know what’s happening in the game. Further more I have gained the ability to identify the palyers based on their builds and sometimes the numbers on the back of the jerseys. (although not always).

I screamed myself sore at Saturdays match and wore jeans in the blazing sun which means that everytime I got up I could feel my jeans sticking to me, but did I care? Not one wit?

Yes, I am really bumed about not being able to go. But I’ll just keep telling myself that there are people who deserve it more than I do – like Jeremy for example.

And I will be glued to the screen come Saturday. I’ll still be watching.

36 hours later

Its an all SA final!

In 30 hours I will be one of fifty thousand screaming fans at the rugby.

 

In thirty six hours the semi’s will be over.

 

the road to the final begins.

 

 

 

MY SAY: the names changes that are being touted for the greater Durban area.

Why is that while we have no money to fix the roads, build new houses, educate more people, build schools, give more money to people that require it, lower rates, we have the money to change the street names?

How and why is that?

 

Also why is Point Road being renamed to Mahatma Ghandi Road? I think it’s an insult to the Indian community of South Africa and indeed the Indian community world wide. 

 

I do understand that we need to deal with the ghosts of the past. But I do not think that changing the names of the street roads are going to help eradicate the detrimental effects of apartheid. Perhaps we should think about using that money towards something like that or maybe even use it to sponsor more comedy shows so that people of all races and ages can get together and laugh together.

 

Changing the names of the roads is just another example of our countries great effort to focus on the mundane to show the rest of the world that we no longer are what we were. Unfortunately all these mundane efforts make us look like laughing stocks to the rest of the world.

 

The reality is that we need to focus on what makes the country go forward. Changing street names only creates paper work and does nothing for anybody.

 

 

 

 

Thoughts

There are a few things on my mind at the moment

 

1. CURTAINS. I just did curtains for the bedroom at my old flat and then go told I need to move. Now I need to do curtains for the new place. The material that I like for the living room, my beloved seems to think is a little ‘dull’. Humph.
2. BOXES. There are boxes everywhere in my new place. They all need to be unpacked. They are also being forgotten for now due to the rugby. Priorities.
3. THE RUGBY. My beloved’s brother works with at the stadium and was meant to get me a flag. At the moment he is not in the country and will only be back after the rugby – so I’m gonna have to buy my own. Oh well.
4. WAITING. Back in the day my beloved had a car and I would be waiting for him where ever he needed to pick me up usually the sidewalk. Now that his car has been stolen and I need to drive further to work than he does, the situation has not changed. I am still waiting for him on the sidewalk. Except this time he is the one being picked up. – Some things never change and some things do.
5. SUGAR. I have not had sugar for almost two weeks. Yesterday I had a soft drink for the first time in three weeks. I’ve also not had a decent cup of tea for almost a month. Yes, sweeteners are not bad but there really is nothing like a good cup of tea with good milk and real sugar.
6. MOTHERS DAY. I was a good daughter this year. Got really nice Mothers Day Cards early. They are now packed away in boxes and I have no idea where there are. DOH!

 

rugby mania

I kept hitting the refresh button, determined not to loose my place and get tickets for the rugby. It’s done. I have the tickets. My beloved’s credit card has been maxed out. That is the price you pay for glory.

 

R510 later. I will be at the rugby on Saturday with my Sharks cap, my Sharks flag and a shirt with the Sharks logo on it. I will be one of the 50 thousand and I will scream with the rest of them. I’m getting all excited just thinking about it.

 

I will of course work on getting season tickets for next year. After this year how could I not?

 

It is of course going to be an all SA final and it will be in Durban.  And YES the sharks are going to win and yes I am going to be there.

 

And to think three months ago, I couldn’t give a darn.

Movin' on Up! We've finally got a piece of the pie!

The weekend in review; it was only really two days long – Saturday and Sunday but so so much happened.

 

My mother found some interesting things in my fridge. Yes I know what most people would say – why are you scared of your mother. You’re 25 for heavens sake. It’s not an issue of being scared and honestly if you told my mother that I think she’d laugh at you.

 

It’s an issue of respect and honour. No matter how old I am, as her child I am honour bound to respect her; not only for her but for me as well. So while I DO NOT agree with my mother on a great many things I still respect and honour her opinions on it. I would imagine my brother does as well.

 

I also found out that my mother is an avid reader of my blog. – I have no idea how she found it or who showed it to her. We discussed some of the finer things of my posting. While something here my offend her, they are me and this is a piece of my and I stood strong and proud and boldly said that I would not be silent and if anyone chooses to read my ramblings, they do so at their own peril.

 

The move went okay … ish. There is still some stuff that needs to be moved out from our old place. We’ll get there. Thanks to a special cousin, we had a billion boxes and used most of them already. Our spare room is piled high with boxes. We have too much stuff. We’ve only been married for about 2 years and four months but we have

16 dinner plates

16 bowls

8 soup bowls

20 cups

Loads and loads of glasses of every shape and kind.

 

Why do two people need 16 dinner plates? My beloved and I could go for two entire weeks without washing dishes and still have a new clean plate for every meal.

It’s madness I tell you

 

And unsurprisingly there were books everywhere. I think we had like 10 boxes of books. And not all of them were on the bookcase. They were scattered everywhere.

The next few months are going to be going through boxes and turfing stuff out. I have come to the realisation that we really actually have far toooooo much junk and I will be making the biggest efforts I can to get rid of it. I found a box stuffed with old newspapers.

Why on earth I had a box stuffed with newspaper is actually beyond me but there it was filled to the brim with newspaper. Gaaa.

Tossed out the newspaper and stuffed the box with other un-needed junk.

 

 

I watched Ferris Buellers Day Off last week. Does anyone remember the economics class? Anyone, Anyone?

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE SPICE GIRLS

 

Whether you would like to believe or not I was a Spice Girls fan. Or rather I should say am. It amuses my husband to no end every time I sing along to Spice World belting out the lyrics at the top of my voice without pausing for a single breath.

Yes, I really actually still do know all the words. I still know all the words to wannabe as well and can recall many of the finer details with regards to my love affair with the Spice Girls. The Pussycat Dolls could really not hold a candle in comparison.

In the new, I read about David Beckham’s 32nd Birthday celebrations that were attended by four of the five Spices, two with brand new babies and apparently Emma is pregnant and of course Posh Spice was there.

The only thing missing was Sporty Spice – Mel C. The only one (on my opinion) with a wonderfully successful career after the end of Spice.

A little jealous perhaps girls?

on the brightside

the sharks won the rugby

 

home semi-final

 

 

TO ANONYMOUS

Dearest Anonymous

 

Thank you so much for your comments about how pathetic my life is. Really if not for you I would not have realised that I really actually am a sad person and I really must say thank you for pointing it out to me. Now since you've done the only good deed you're ever likely to do - go hang yourself.

 

I'd also like to say you arrogant loathsome cockroach, I bet your life is a whole lot more pathetic than mine. You know why because you little prick I have the guts to say what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling. You on the on the other hand hide behind "anonymous". You're really actually really very safe because outside of someone that you've expressed your comments to in person. I don't know who you are but guess what I don't' really actually give a flying rats ass about what you think or what you say. in your opinion I'm pathetic, guess what you dirtbag it's actually you who really are.

 

I'm out there saying what I have to say. Like Jeremy said you feel so proud of yourself for having your say - now come out and tell me who you are. Can't? - well then who's pathetic? Tell me who you are and trust me - I won't feel anything about telling you that you're nothing but ignorant gutter trash.

 

Unlike you - I have a spine and a voice and in your opinion I might be pathetic but at least I have the guts to put a name and a face to my voice.

 

and yes I do think my car is sexy. YOU KNOW WHY - COS IT'S MINE

 

 

 

 

 

one of those annoying forwards

NEW PLAN. Anytime I get one of these thing I’m just gonna post it on my blog and then leave it there.

 

Does anybody actually care about what Shampoo I use?

 

 

1. What time did you get up this morning?  I’m still asleep

2. Diamonds or pearls? Ummm the are both worthy in their own right
3. What was the last film you saw at the movies?  300 (the Spartan six-pack… let’s go again)
4. What is your favourite TV show?  I don’t do TV … I have other more interesting things to occupy my time like study
5. What did you have for breakfast? 1 cup of bran flakes with a banana and ½ cup lot fat milk. I’m on a lifestyle eating plan
6. What is your middle name(s)? Denise

7. What is your favourite cuisine?  Right now I would settle for something I consider wonderfully satisfying. It’s the lifestyle eating plan

8. What foods do you dislike? At the moment? Everything I put in my mouth
9. What is your favourite crisp flavour? Ghostbusters and cheese curls
10. What is your favourite CD at the moment? The new Timberlake … I loooooove track 2

 11. What type of car do you drive?  A sexy black Chevrolet Spark.
13. What characteristics do you despise? People who think they know everything.

14. Favourite item of clothing? My brand new Ginger Mary top.

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? The place where the 300 died and go see the Tomb of King Leonidas
16. Favourite time of the day? Night time
17. What was your most memorable birthday? I have no idea
18. Where were you born? Durban. The doctor told me mother that my chances or survival were minimal so I was born at king Edwards. My mother tried to soothe my by telling me they had the best doctors of the time there.
19. Favourite sport to watch? Cricket and Shawn Michaels
20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you?  You all better send it back … except you Vani
21. Who do you expect to send it back first?  Leeandra … I’m waiting. Sunny boy is not going to call J
22. Coke or Pepsi? Umm water?
23. Are you a morning person or a night owl? OWL
24. What is your shoe size? 5

25. Do you have any pets? No do I look like an animal person?

26. What did you want to be when you were little? I wanted to be bigger. Some things never change

27. When is your birthday?  5^th June 1981
28. Shampoo? Sunsilk … the yellow one and some other insanely expensive Wella products that I’m terrified of                          finishing
29. Soap? Star struck or star shine or something like that. Has the essence of blue flower

30. Summer/Winter?  Winter
32. Thinking about? How much longer is this gonna take?

33. Listening to: my boss coughing and the melodic sounds of my fingers hitting the keys.  

 

******THE LAST 24 HOURS**************
Cried? Yes, I found out that someone I knew has passed away at the tender age of 22. I was very upset.
Met someone new?  NOPE
Cleaned your room? No I’m moving. I’m making a mess
Drove a car? No actually. Must rectify that
How many hours sleep? Whatever it was, it wasn't enough
 

************DO YOU BELIEVE IN**************
Santa Clause: YES

Destiny/Fate? NO
Ghosts? NO
 

 

 

 

 

DEATH

I just found out that a 22 year old acquaintance of mine died on Saturday. Death is not easier and I’ve had to think about it too often in the last two weeks. I hate it.

 

Someone thinks I complain too much about my life based on what I write here. That person doesn’t seem to understand that this is where I heal my hurts, where I voice my pains and then move on. It hurts when people die. Even those you didn’t know all that well. Every death leaves a mark on you that never ever really goes away.

 

I’ll always remember Mark. His death shook the foundations that my world was precariously balanced on. His death still affects me today.

 

The death of my father also still affects me in ways that I never would have thought. I hate the pain that death bring. The stains that it leaves on your soul. I understand that it is a part of life but I hate the sadness and complete darkness and despair that surrounds it.

Dieting grrr aaarrg

The diet is going well. I have to have fruit. Earlier today I had the weirdest apple ever. Two pieces of fruit twice a day and try to get in three cups of veggies a day. Three cups? Bloody hell.

 

My mind is still reeling from the Harry Potter overload. I also watched 300 on Friday night and  HELL  … the Spartan six-pack. Now that was something that I’d go see again. Frank Miller strikes again though with some unbelievable violence. Chop chop.  Imdb.com had some really interesting things to say about the trivia concerning the movie.  King Leonidas was an amazing man. His queen was more so.

 

I completely forgot what else I was going to say.

 

Potter

There are 79 days till the next Harry Potter and 72 days till the next movie. I spent the last two doing maths and history and watching Harry Potter movies. All four in two days.

 

 

Very soon we are going to be drowning in Potterness.  As the seventh month grows closer and the prophecy is to be fulfilled.

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Monday morning":

“Get over yourself ... all you do is complain bout how pathetic your life was and how your childhood was anything but free. Get over it. You are alive today and your experiences have made you who you are. STOP COMPLAINING”

 

 

To the person who left that comment.

 

You arrogant little shit – If you don’t like what I have to say then don’t read my damn blog. Further more if you have something to say – than at least have a spine and say it straight to my face instead of leaving anonymous comments. And just because you read one post doesn’t make you an expert on me and what I do say or am.

 

Asshole.

Monday morning

It’s a chilly Monday morning here. The sun is shining but there is a definite chill in the air. There are man things on my mind this morning. Today is a week since the death of Wendy Ralph. Yesterday the church mourned with the Ralph family and then at tea celebrated the birthday of the indomitable Jaco Bester. It’s amazing how life moves on. How even in profound sadness we find things to rejoice about.

 

The previous week was church camp and out of that a lot of controversy arouse. The main speaker spoke about a number of things that some Christians think are wrong like smoking and tattoos. On Sunday our pastor rehashed out the issue with the church. He didn’t agree with everything the speaker at church camp and it amazed me to hear him repeat many things that my brother said to me in a conversation regarding some his habits on Friday night. So there are a lot of things that I am thinking about clearly and very deeply in my current drugged (flu meds) state.

 

The truth is that I come from a legalistic church background. Everything was bad. Make-up, jewellery, pants, movies, TV – everything. And while I had a great deal of freedom, I lived a very sheltered life. Today at 25, I feel cheated. I never got the chance to experience life as I wanted to. I never got the chance to do a great deal of things because I was and I guess still am afraid of what everybody will think of me. For a long time I lead a double life. One person at school or on campus and another at home or on weekends and how I wish I had the freedom to express myself as I was. Everything that I was interested was wrong. The legalistic church school that I went to succeeded in making me feel as though me as a person was wrong and bad and for many years I wanted to be something that I was not. I wanted to be what they thought was good which was the complete opposite of what God made me.

 

It has taken years and countless hours of prayer for me to break from that. Till this year I’ve never been comfortable wearing make-up or lipstick even and even now while I don’t wear it everyday, I do put it on when the occasion calls for it.

 

 

Two preaches helped me break out of my shell. They were almost a year apart

The one was one our pastor preached about having a future, cutting the chains that bind. He told the story of a tortoise that had somehow got a ring around the middle of its shell and how it had changed the shape of the shell, and he went on to say that if you cut the ring of, the shape may not change straight away but the tortoise now has a future and a chance to grow. More so than is the ring had not been cut off.

This was the first big thing.

 

The second was a sermon by his wife over a year later. She was preaching about raising little girls with the fruit of the spirit. It struck me that the opposite of gentleness was harshness and the opposite of kindness was cruelty and that I was neither or those things. And the personality I do have makes me neither harsh or cruel.

 

It’s not easy getting up after many years of feeling crushed and it’s taken a great deal of time for me to feel completely comfortable with myself all the time and I walked on many roads to get here.

 

So what am I trying to say?

At the end of the day as long as your heart is in the right place and you are not sinning against God - go and be free. Live the life you were meant to and have all the fun you want to. Just never loose sight of the goal.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Diet: DAY TWO

the whole thing about being on a diet is beginning to make sense to me. I am doing this for empowerment … sort of. I still need to workon some stuff judging by my behaviour yesterday. (I really want to forget about it) but I do believe that things will get better as time goes by.

One thing that  has crossed my mind is that I will be saving a ton of money by not having so much take out.

 

So far for today I have kept up eating all meals as I should.

 

Tonight is party night

 

Congratualtions to ME

 

Yellow Lemon Tree - Fool's Garden

We must not forget the things of when we were younger. I remember driving past the petrol station and the KFC along the windy road to my aunt’s house singing this song.  Such a sad song with such a catchy tune

               I'm sitting here in a boring room

               it's just another rainy Sunday afternoon

               I'm wasting my time, I got nothing to do

               I'm hanging around, I'm waiting for you 

               but nothing ever happens

               and I wonder (why)

               I'm driving around in my car

               I'm driving too fast and I'm driving too far

               I'd like to change my point of view

               I feel so lonely, I'm waiting for you 

               but nothing ever happens

               and I wonder (why)

               I wonder how, I wonder why

               yesterday you told me about that blue blue sky

               and all that I can see

               is just a yellow lemon tree

               I'm turning my head up and down 

               I'm turn it turn it turn it turn it turn it around

               and all that I can see

               is just another lemon tree

               (sing: ta da da da di da da, 

                               ta ta ta ti da ta 

                               dap di ti ti tam)

               I'm sitting here, I miss a pal

               I'd like to go out, taking a shower

               but there's a heavy cloud inside my head

               I feel so tired, put myself into bed

               well, nothing ever happens

               and I wonder (why)

               Isolation is not good for me

               Isolation.. 

               I don't want to sit on the lemon tree

               I'm stepping around in a desert of joy

               maybe anyhow I get another toy

               and everything will happen'

               and you wonder (why)

               I wonder how, I wonder why

               yesterday you told me about that blue blue sky

               and all that I can see

               is just another lemon tree

               I'm turning my head up and down 

               I'm turn it turn it turn it turn it turn it around

               and all that I can see

               is just a yellow lemon tree

               And I wonder, I wonder..

               I wonder how, I wonder why

               yesterday you told me about that blue blue sky

               and all that I can see

               and all that I can see

               and all that I can see

               is just a yellow lemon tree

 

 

 

IT BEGINS

There was just a huge giant bumble bee in my office. I hate bees.

 

Yesterday was the first day of my new diet. I went to a dietician and got a whole eating plan and am going to stick to it – the power of positive thinking. My diet started very shakily yesterday. To begin with I did not have all the things I am supposed to so technically on the first day – I cheated. But I’m moving on. There really was nothing I could do about any of that. Today is a much better day mostly because of my shopping spree yesterday. I had to go shoppping for all the things I am allowed to have mainly fruit. After all I really don’t want to starve.

 

So yesterday meals were

Breakfast: 2/3 cup all bran flakes with ½ cup milk 

Mod morning snack: 1 cup coffee with sugar

Lunch: 2 slices white bread with two ham slices

Mid afternoon snack: 45g Bfast with ½ cup milk

Super: 1 cup brown rice with a mixed veg and a piece of fish.

 

It might then be just a better idea all around to can yesterday and have today Thursday 25^th April 2007 as the first day of my diet.

 

 

Today the meal plan is as follow:-

 

Breakfast: 1 cup all bran flakes with ½ cup low fat milk and 1 sweetener.

Mid morning snack: 1 cup fruit salad

Lunch: 2 slices of wheat bread with 30g tuna and ½T yo-naise and a can of sugar free ginger ale

Mid afternoon snack: 1 apple and two naartjies. (I may just have 1 apple and one naartjie)

Supper: roast chicken with accompaniments

 

My mother is cooking supper for me on account of how I have finally graduated from my honours degree. I have told her about me new diet and my freedoms and restrictions.

 

I am not allowed any sugar of any kind at all. I am now having sweetener. I’m allowed 14 tablets a day. I’m going to try only having half of that. So far today I’ve had one but I can live without it. Yesterday I had no sugar with my bran flakes and it wasn’t too bad. So I can deal with not having it in there. Pronutro will be another story though.

 

I must admit that I am very apprehensive about this. Can I do it? I’m not sure. But I do know that have some great people supporting me in this quest and to each of them I am very grateful.

 

As with all new and exciting developments I will keep you posted

BLUE MONDAY?

The dark ones who eternal in damnation grow
Set about me now
How they whine and crow
I am solo
In this world of wet
And bitter is my temperament
I close the door to sentiment
And I relish all my youth
I realize that I am doomed

This is how I feel at the moment. These words summarise how I feel perfectly. It’s the thought of moving yet again. I want to just stay in one place. I was settled where we were, I even bought curtains that I like. Now it all has to change and while I don’t mind change … for the sake of sanity can we please just slow down.

 

Everything has happened so fast and I can’t help but feel that somewhere along the line I missed something.

 

I’ve added some DVD’s to my Jet Li collection but have not had a chance to watch them. They’re probably going to be dubbed and how I hate that. Subtitles people … embrace them. But hey at 50 bucks a DVD you get what you pay for.

I’m in a very contemplative mood today,

 

Last night on the way to my graduation I found out that a lady I know had died the day before. There I was in pretty clothes with nicely done hair and a made up face while friends of mine cried over the loss of their mother.

 

It’s really actually not very fair. I do understand that death is apart of life but why does it have to be so painful? I remember when we were younger and one of my teachers died, we weren’t allowed to cry. How do you do that? How do you not mourn for losing someone? More often than not the crying is more for yourself than anything.

 

I believe that you should cry for as long as you like in one sitting. Then move on. Grief is a part of death and life.

 

 

THE WEEKEND

There are many things that happened across this weekend that I wish I had actually noted down so that I could remember them a little more accurately. Anyway it was a lovely weekend. I really did enjoy myself. I think one of the best parts of the weekend was finding out that Brad and Christy were going to have a baby.

 

Today I am a little more subdued. I am very tired and I have a relatively very full day ahead of me. I have an appointment with a dieticians and then going to get my hair done because later today is my graduation. I’m very nervous.

 

I thought I had a lot more to say but I guess I was wrong.

 

 

 

 

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the end

Now that is all seems to be over. I seem to be crashing really really hard. Exhaustion is taking over and I’m finding it a bit difficult to stay awake or think coherently. Do you think I will be okay for the drive home?

 

All the people I have called today are not available.

There is a treason at sea

Occasionally you come across something that really actually speaks to you OUTLOUD. this is one of those for me

 

I am solo in this world of water
Only the tip of a sunrise visible
Like the morning light in a little girls eyes
I crave this freedom
I find it only in this little ship
Just my soul and this bread and butter
I am comfortable
But there is a treason at sea
Is it me?
It is a wonder, supernatural cover of war
The dark ones who eternal in damnation grow
Set about me now
How they whine and crow
I am solo
In this world of wet
And bitter is my temperament
I close the door to sentiment
And I relish all my youth
I realize that I am doomed
Fear of love and fear of you
But you give me the keys to paradise
It is you who sympathize
You and your perfection grow
I am cradled in your oceans throw
I crave your freedom in this little ship
For you alone can chart my trip
And like these waves I lose my grip
And I sink into your arms

It's DONE

After much thought and wondering and looking; we have found a place to move into. A townhouse. We are moving into a freestanding house in a gated complex. It has two bedrooms; a bathroom and a loft. I really like the loft.

 

We need a large rug for the up there. The rooms have built in cupboards. The second bedroom is small but can still fit a single bed in for people who want to stay over.

 

They grr thing is that we finally for curtain for our current place and now we have to get new ones all over again. Well I’m sure we can get something nice and suitable. There is also a garage for my car.

 

It’s a bit shabby looking at the moment but they are going to clean it up and make it all look really lovely. I’m going to have making it beautiful. No one will have to walk through our bedroom to go to the bathroom anymore.

 

One thing is for certain. It’s gonna need to really good clean.

if all the rain drops ...

Today it is cold and rainy outside. I’ve always felt like on days like these God is actually telling us to take some time out. Just chill and relax for while. Don’t worry about anything. Just cuddle up nice and warm in our bed and sleep the day away.

 

 Back in the days of my part time job I would have done exactly that but now I am dragging myself out of bed waay to early in the morning, getting into my car and meandering along to sit in my office and work.

There is something satisfying about having the same routine as most of the general public. Sitting here though I can’t help but think about all the pour souls that are out there with no jerseys or anything to keep them warm.  Nobody ever said it would be and easy life but it doesn’t take a lot to wish it just wasn’t sooo very hard.

 

The search for a place to live continues, the flat at gatway is available again but so is another potentially lovely place that we have not seen yet.

 

We have to make a decision by three o clock today.

 

Forced decisions are never easy.

STORM

There was just a really intense storm going on here. There is still some thunder floating around. I like storms but I prefer to be warm and safe in bed when then arrive.

 

I also don’t have any socks with me and my toes are cold. Actually right now I am a bit cold.

harsh and bright

In my office the light always flickers. It’s strange. There are two of them. Those long fluorescent lights that are harsh and always waaaay to bright.

The one goes on exactly like it should and stays that way. The other flickers on and off. It really is actually very annoying. It just flickers. The only solution is to switch off the lights and then switch it back on. Repeat process as many times as necessary until both bright harsh fluorescent lights stay on.

 

Harsh and bright. Those two words together never fail to remind me about Buffy season six when she was brought back.                   

 

So the search for a flat continues. One of the options was taken away from us yesterday but another has presented itself this morning. I think I might really like that one a great deal. I haven’t seen yet so my opinions are based on what I’ve heard. It did sound lovely though.

 

I will post pics as soon as I have them.

 

Apparently there is a loft bedroom type place. I’m thinking Library with my lovely bookcase.

Bittersweet Symphony

My beloved and I have to move house because our land lords have sold their home and are moving to the UK because there is nothing left for them here. So the battle has begun. Except this time it’s a lot more involved.

Since being married in December 2004 my beloved and I have moved house 4 times. So we really actually juts want to be settled and not have to move.

 

At present there are two places in the running. A stunning two bedroom flat at Gateway – to rent or to buy a tiny little flat in the heart of Durban North. These decisions are never easy and you need to look way into the future to try and determine an outcome.

 

Both have really good cons and pro. Like we have always been told property is an investment and it will be really cool to have our place even if it is a sectional title thing.

 

We’ll have to see what happens

 

 

 

 

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah,

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
Try to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet yeah

You know I can change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

I can't change my mold
no, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
no, no, no

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Have you ever been down?
Have you've ever been down?

 

 

and in the news today ...

Apparently Britney Spears is in the running to be the next female on the arm of Prince William.

 

 

like that will ever happen.